waiting for you is trying to hold my breath underwater without knowing when i can come up for air

waiting for you is feeling that jolt through my stomach every time my phone buzzes

waiting for you is curling up in a corner and wondering when it’s safe to come out

waiting for you is snuggling my stuffed animal tight and imagining your arms around me

waiting for you is closing my eyes and trying to recall your smell

waiting for you is sitting outside of your dorm because it’s just that much closer

waiting for you is wandering the wet grass under a night sky and remembering your footsteps

waiting for you is praying through tears and wrestling with runaway breathing

waiting for you is needing to be protected and looking around to find no one to hold me

waiting for you is going crazy, frenetic thoughts bouncing around in an exhausted body

waiting for you is living waterlogged, exhaustion deadening limb and life and demanding unplanned naps

waiting for you is stumbling through a hurricane and hoping for clear skies when all i see is dark

waiting for you is curling around a ball of warmth in winter snow, fighting to keep the light from slipping through my fingers

waiting for you is the scariest thing i’ve ever done

but i know if my waiting ever ends, you’ll be worth the wait