i’m back here in the place where i began
with a new flame in my heart
and still the longing to hold your hand.
i feel your absence
but i now also feel His presence
holding me
keeping me
warding off my demons.
i am not alone in this dark.
and i realize i never truly was–
what a relief.
but still i pray to one day feel your arm around me
and joy, full and complete.